Friday, September 9, 2011
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Anxiety
So my excellent, highly esteemed doctor wasn't able to find anything physically wrong with me when I went in for tests last week. He attributed it to stress and told me to triple my meds. It seemed to be working as I was able to start eating again after a couple of days. I know that stress does weird things to your body and lately I've been under a ton of it, both physical and mental. The thing is, I'm not sure upping my meds was the right thing to do.
I was doing much better aside from still not being able to sleep. This is usually a sign of mental stress. My brain just won't shut down! When this happens I usually have to drug myself to get a good nights sleep, then I wake up groggy and my performance at work suffers because of it. I try not to go this route unless I absolutely have to.
Then yesterday came. My friend Lee asked me if I would like to participate in making a Christmas album. Anyone who's known me for 3 seconds knows that music is my life and this is right up my alley. I told him I'd pray about it, talk it over with Josh and get back to him by Friday. Then my mind immediately started spinning, going over how many hours it would take me to write the arrangement for my assigned song, how long to learn my parts on the other songs I'm assigned to work on, etc. Next thing I know it's Wednesday, I'm throwing up again and I can't sleep. I'm right back at square one and I haven't even said yes to the project yet!
I went through something like this about 8 years ago. At the time my GP wanted to put me on something for anxiety. I told him no and chose to burn off the stress by working out. This led to extreme weight loss and eventually a full blown Crohn's flair that almost killed me. It was five full years of h-e-double-hockey-sticks. Three years after it was all over I've still only put on about half of the weight my doctor wants me to. Oh the beauty of my disease! Needless to say I can't afford to go down that road again.
This is all to say that I think it's time I took Dr. M up on that prescription.
I was doing much better aside from still not being able to sleep. This is usually a sign of mental stress. My brain just won't shut down! When this happens I usually have to drug myself to get a good nights sleep, then I wake up groggy and my performance at work suffers because of it. I try not to go this route unless I absolutely have to.
Then yesterday came. My friend Lee asked me if I would like to participate in making a Christmas album. Anyone who's known me for 3 seconds knows that music is my life and this is right up my alley. I told him I'd pray about it, talk it over with Josh and get back to him by Friday. Then my mind immediately started spinning, going over how many hours it would take me to write the arrangement for my assigned song, how long to learn my parts on the other songs I'm assigned to work on, etc. Next thing I know it's Wednesday, I'm throwing up again and I can't sleep. I'm right back at square one and I haven't even said yes to the project yet!
I went through something like this about 8 years ago. At the time my GP wanted to put me on something for anxiety. I told him no and chose to burn off the stress by working out. This led to extreme weight loss and eventually a full blown Crohn's flair that almost killed me. It was five full years of h-e-double-hockey-sticks. Three years after it was all over I've still only put on about half of the weight my doctor wants me to. Oh the beauty of my disease! Needless to say I can't afford to go down that road again.
This is all to say that I think it's time I took Dr. M up on that prescription.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Whew!
This last weekend we tackled the dreaded "Wedding Checklist."* Things we checked off:
Caterer - Stan and Marty "Mrs. Clause" Veltkamp
Flowers - Costco, although now Mom's trying to change this one up and I'm having second thoughts about the "collection" we chose. I think they'll clash with the girls' dresses and my sash.
Engagement Photos - Sept. 8 with Kathy Weirda
Save the Date Cards
Invitations - they're picked out, now just waiting for enough Michael's coupons to buy them...
The Commons contract - it just showed up in my in-box courtesy of Korrie
We're making progress!
*Dreaded because every time I'd bring up doing anything wedding related Josh would look at me a little bit pissy and say, "I thought this wasn't going to take over our lives!" Guess what Sweetheart, some things have to be discussed. It doesn't all just magically happen!
Caterer - Stan and Marty "Mrs. Clause" Veltkamp
Flowers - Costco, although now Mom's trying to change this one up and I'm having second thoughts about the "collection" we chose. I think they'll clash with the girls' dresses and my sash.
Engagement Photos - Sept. 8 with Kathy Weirda
Save the Date Cards
Invitations - they're picked out, now just waiting for enough Michael's coupons to buy them...
The Commons contract - it just showed up in my in-box courtesy of Korrie
We're making progress!
*Dreaded because every time I'd bring up doing anything wedding related Josh would look at me a little bit pissy and say, "I thought this wasn't going to take over our lives!" Guess what Sweetheart, some things have to be discussed. It doesn't all just magically happen!
Monday, August 15, 2011
Wedding Update
The dress is bought, the suits picked out and the church is reserved. That's all the further we've (I've?) gotten. I feel like it's so far away that I don't really need to worry about the rest of it yet. Of course this is going to come back and bite me in the hiny, I'm sure. Procrastination always does!
We've changed the reception from my parents back yard to The Commons. Based on the number of people that will likely be attending, parking and bathrooms were going to be an issue. I think this will simplify things though as we only have to decorate one venue now. Also, we met in The Commons auditorium so it's sort of fitting.
Now, the next thing on my sort of in the back of my head list is finding a photographer. Any suggestions?
We've changed the reception from my parents back yard to The Commons. Based on the number of people that will likely be attending, parking and bathrooms were going to be an issue. I think this will simplify things though as we only have to decorate one venue now. Also, we met in The Commons auditorium so it's sort of fitting.
Now, the next thing on my sort of in the back of my head list is finding a photographer. Any suggestions?
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Mark Your Calendars!
The date is set! On July 6, 2012 I will become Mrs. Heinemann! Plans are slowly coming together, but that's OK. We have 11 1/2 months. I have a feeling it's going to go way too fast!
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
We now deviate from our regularly scheduled programing to bring you this special announcement...
I had a post all ready to go featuring a couple of clothing pieces that I'm super excited about. However something kind of special happened so forgive me, you're going to have to wait!
HOW IT HAPPENED
Sunday afternoon Josh and I were hanging out at his house. We always spend Sundays together. It's one of our favorite times of the week. After the sun went behind the clouds and ruined our plans for laying outside we went inside and promptly fell asleep. When I woke up Josh was laying beside me and we curled up together and started talking. He started asking me questions like am I sure that I'm OK moving away from my friends and family so that he can continue his research? Am I really OK with the fact that he's a bit of a work-a-holic? Do I really trust that he will always make the decision that he believes is best for us? He asked me questions like this for a couple of hours. When he was finally questioned out he turned to me and asked, "So will you marry me?" After all the other questions I didn't realize that he was proposing. I'm not exactly sure what I said other than that it was in the affirmative. Then he asked me if I was sure. I said, "Of course I'm sure."
"Then you should wear this."
It wasn't until he handed me the ring that I realized he was proposing! I'm so blond sometimes!
So now answers to the three most frequently asked questions.
1. Have you set a date? No, we haven't. Many of our married friends have told us that they wish they had taken more time to enjoy just being engaged before they dove head first into planning the wedding. We've decided to take their advice. We'll set a date sometime next month. It'll happen next summer, beyond that, that's all we've got. We have however spent a great deal of time talking about what's going to happen AFTER the wedding, ie: where we're going to live, plans to pay off the remainder of both of our debt before Josh graduates, whether or not to buy Josh a better vehicle or make due with the Jeep, etc. I think we're both more excited about what happens after the DJ's paid and the last person's left the dance floor.
2. Which wedding magazines have I checked out? Umm...none! Nor do I plan to! I flipped through one, I can't remember which, while I was waiting for my ring to be sized and you know what? I don't need to look at $6000 dresses. I'm not willing to spend anywhere near that much. I don't need to look at designer flowers and cakes. I'm doing my own flowers and my sister is going to do our cake. I already know what I want my flowers to look like and my sister is far and away more talented than any bakery here in Bozeman. She could seriously be on Cake Boss. Finally, I don't need to look at engagement rings. I already have one that Josh had made especially for me and it's PERFECT! Likewise, I will not be spending money on a "Commemorative" Wedding Planning Book. *Shudder*
3. What kind of diet/fitness regimen will I be going on to fit into the dress? The fact that anyone would ask me this sort of blows my mind and yet I've been asked more than once. I'm not. Period.
So that's my big news!
HOW IT HAPPENED
Sunday afternoon Josh and I were hanging out at his house. We always spend Sundays together. It's one of our favorite times of the week. After the sun went behind the clouds and ruined our plans for laying outside we went inside and promptly fell asleep. When I woke up Josh was laying beside me and we curled up together and started talking. He started asking me questions like am I sure that I'm OK moving away from my friends and family so that he can continue his research? Am I really OK with the fact that he's a bit of a work-a-holic? Do I really trust that he will always make the decision that he believes is best for us? He asked me questions like this for a couple of hours. When he was finally questioned out he turned to me and asked, "So will you marry me?" After all the other questions I didn't realize that he was proposing. I'm not exactly sure what I said other than that it was in the affirmative. Then he asked me if I was sure. I said, "Of course I'm sure."
"Then you should wear this."
It wasn't until he handed me the ring that I realized he was proposing! I'm so blond sometimes!
So now answers to the three most frequently asked questions.
1. Have you set a date? No, we haven't. Many of our married friends have told us that they wish they had taken more time to enjoy just being engaged before they dove head first into planning the wedding. We've decided to take their advice. We'll set a date sometime next month. It'll happen next summer, beyond that, that's all we've got. We have however spent a great deal of time talking about what's going to happen AFTER the wedding, ie: where we're going to live, plans to pay off the remainder of both of our debt before Josh graduates, whether or not to buy Josh a better vehicle or make due with the Jeep, etc. I think we're both more excited about what happens after the DJ's paid and the last person's left the dance floor.
2. Which wedding magazines have I checked out? Umm...none! Nor do I plan to! I flipped through one, I can't remember which, while I was waiting for my ring to be sized and you know what? I don't need to look at $6000 dresses. I'm not willing to spend anywhere near that much. I don't need to look at designer flowers and cakes. I'm doing my own flowers and my sister is going to do our cake. I already know what I want my flowers to look like and my sister is far and away more talented than any bakery here in Bozeman. She could seriously be on Cake Boss. Finally, I don't need to look at engagement rings. I already have one that Josh had made especially for me and it's PERFECT! Likewise, I will not be spending money on a "Commemorative" Wedding Planning Book. *Shudder*
3. What kind of diet/fitness regimen will I be going on to fit into the dress? The fact that anyone would ask me this sort of blows my mind and yet I've been asked more than once. I'm not. Period.
So that's my big news!
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Setting the Record Straight
There's a rumor going around town that I stole from Pepsi while I was working there. This rumor is not true. I've lied, I've hurt people I care about, I've self destructed is some pretty horrible ways and I've done a lot of things that I'm not proud of, but stealing is not one of them. I don't know who started this rumor, but it's absolutely untrue.
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